03/02/2022

I started off this morning going to Bloke’s Breakfast at church. We looked at men and the creation, which meant looking at humankind in Creation, Adam, Eve, and their relationships. Further, we discussed the differences between men and women.

I thought for a bit later on in the day about what is meant to be a man. About what Biblical manhood is. About what God desires of me as a man. About how I should relate to the world, to society, as a real man. It doesn’t really seem a simple question, but one which I’ve asked before. I thought about three points: 1) Self-discipline, 2) Taking responsibility and 3) Serving sacrificially.

After I had come home from debating and had eaten dinner, I sat on my phone for a bit, then tried to close my eyes and think, or at least clear my mind. I knew that I had to get on with internship applications, something which perhaps should have been done way before now. This felt so hard though. I knew that to waste the rest of the evening with nothing and not do what was important would be wrong. This drew me back to thinking about manhood; if I couldn’t do half an hour of important work that evening, I could have called myself nothing but lazy and abdicating responsibility. Eventually, I had a glass of water, went upstairs and repented, and then came down and got on with it. I set a half and hour timer and resolved to do applications for at least that amount. And having got into it, I kept going for a while. Then I felt like writing, opened up this blog which I’d started before, wrote a “hello world” post, anonymised it, and then here we are.